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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

14.06.2025 00:04

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I never cut or harmed myself..

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

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Im dying but, im not bitter.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

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But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Comes on , in middle age.

I waited trembling.

What are some creepy bestiality-promoting questions obviously asked for sexual gratification?

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I will be 64.

And i lived it daily.

Why was Cars 2 so bad?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Was to survive, this bastard.

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My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

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.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I was seconnd youngest,

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My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

What is the significance of Pete Rose, the all-time hits leader in Major League Baseball, who just passed away?

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Who then, do I blame.?

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Why are leftist movements so popular among young people?

I couldn’t, believe it.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

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I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

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I don,t even have a pension.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Why cant a narcissist admit when they are wrong?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

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I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I could never make a relationship work though!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

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But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

So whats the point in blame.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He knew the spot.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I have no regrets .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

But, we were locked up after school.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

One cannot live in the past .

Put me off passion for life!!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Why did i forgive my father ?

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

She loved him until the end.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

My family never makes their pension either.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My life is so biszare .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

(And it was in our own minds.)

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But it wasn’t much.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

He resisted the act ,that day.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She married twice! .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

So, i spoilt her more .

As i do to all so called friends.?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

This is soul school!.

Ive learnt so much.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

She found it foreign!.

We were not on the streets..

I was 9 years of age.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

What did i know ?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

She was in good health!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

It was going to be , some day.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

When she asked me how she looked .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Im still living with it.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

She wouldn,t have been !

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Would this be the day?

But ive been too sick for many years..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

All the time i was locked up.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I was scared of men, in general

I know ,a lot about trauma.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I think the readers, may guess!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I said to her

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I write beautiful poetry .

We all went to grammer schools

I was very sick at this time too.